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In this song, Reginald, one of the survivors, sings about his life and losses. It seems like loss and mourning from a relatively young age are part of the gay experience. We lose family members and friends when we come out. We lose friends to suicide or AIDS or hate crimes. It's changing, of course, but that loss, and the strength to feel it and carry it with us, remains part of our shared story.
When I was a little boy
Nursing my childhood dreams
In a little house
In a little town, full of
Grandma would say to me
That I had a destiny,
And that, if I were a good boy, I could
Well, Grandma doesn't speak to me anymore.
Guess I couldn't be that good by she was hoping for.
But I could think.
I could hear.
I could learn enough to overcome my fear.
I could be
Even if it meant I lost my family.
I could carry on,
Still not the person Grandma prayed I'd be,
But I'm still holding to these childhood dreams.
Maybe I won't amount to much, or every learn to please.
But I can share the word that lives inside of me!
I can speak.
I can teach.
I can give of the compassion I've received.
I can build.
I can sing!
I can honor all the loves,
That have passed away from me,
By sharing all the good that they have ever shown to me.
I can live my life.
I can carry on.
from Upstairs - Workshop Selections,
released March 6, 2013
Words and Music by Wayne Self
Piano Arrangement by Wayne Self and Sean Alexander Bart
Vocals: Charles Romaine
Pianist: Sean Alexander Bart